世界は完全じゃない、だから美しい。

Hahaha.

2009-05-25T15:20:00.001+08:00

I might start blogger again if I find a nice blogskin. >.>

random update

2009-05-22T20:00:00.002+08:00

I'm considering shifting my blog to wordpress for now. I don't know why, I just like it. Of course, I could always go back to using my livejournal. :P

I'm tired, and apparently, still a little frustrated at goodness knows what. I made some headway for chapter 7, but apparently. I'm stuck again. XD Stupid Hui, she's damn hard to write. D< Well, that's just an excuse. :3

I don't know. I just felt like blogging. :/

I read Bakuman 38 today. I wish I could have that sort of dedication. Everything just seems to come out as a half-assed attempt lately. I know I can do better...But I just can't be bothered to. And even before lately came, there was all the maddening procrastination, the easy loss of motivation whenever I ran up against a wall.

Sometimes, I really wonder, being as dedicated...as passionate as I am, can I really say that I love writing?

But then...an awesome idea comes...my heart beats so fast, the adrenaline flys sky high. And I know that I'm where I want to be...that this is what I want to do.

But then...I never end up doing it anyway.

Maybe its because I know I'm not good enough...then I just end up giving up on the big projects. But...you know...

At least I'm working my way up with the small ones. :)

Hmph.

2009-05-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

I was planning to umm...finish up chapter 6 today. But then...well, quite obviously, since I'm writing it this way, you know I failed. :P

It's just...weird...to reintroduce Hui. She was supposed to be there from the start! But then because of all the POVs, it felt weird to just throw her name in. I mean, its fine for Lyzerg and the rest because they are part of teh gang. But with Hui...she's just...not part of barney's happy family. :(

My OCPD kills me. :P But at least it makes me pay a lil more attention to details. Kinda like HDTV does for cameramen and makeup artists. :/

fun and games

2009-05-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

You know that feeling, when you're not emo, but you're just too tired to do anything? Yea? Apparently, I'm getting that feeling again. XD I have no idea why, just been feeling really tired. :'/

I don't know. But on one particular issue, I flipped a coin, so... :)

HAHAHA! Jassy, we're plan spoilers! XD

now i...just gotta...wait for confirmation. Things are settled on my side, SCHOOL, IT'S ALL UP TO YOU.

Btw, doing illegitimate things are actually quite thrilling. :P don't worry, its nothing against the law. XD

K. Tired. Not gonna sleep, but shall just end off here.

Blank screen

2009-05-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

Yea, been staring at the blank screen here for awhile, since i just felt like blogging. But...don't know what to write. Tired leh. >.<

Lol!

Totally and utterly bored.

2009-05-05T00:58:00.003+08:00

*Fangirlism post? I dno, but be prepared.

So...I've been soooooo bored. And then Gakuensai no Ojisama finished downloading. So I decided to try it, translation guide in tow.

And then...I ROFLed. Like...wtf. XD Inui and Fuji want to set up a cafe, Inui doing the drinks...and...Fuji the food. Bad combination, poor Ryoma got dragged in to be a waiter. XD

The whole idea behind the thing is so silly, but that's why its fun I guess. :P It's funny, and worth seeing/playing through for the lines that the characters say sometimes. It's like...PoT is...just that way. >.<

So. Yea. Don't pick on the girl! I mean, its not her fault she's so effing slow that she didn't understand why Atobe was being so nice to her. XD She was made that way by the scriptwriters. Tho why they chose to do so, I haven't a clue. :3

And then...there's all the usual finger-snapping by Atobe, and his usual ore-sama stuff.

Good research, really. I mean, I forgot about Fuji being a genius of hard work, but this actually reminded me.

Now to try and remember all these character aspects and actually use them correctly. XD

Gakuensai would be soooooo worthless, since its purely a dating sim, but then, its so funny I can't help but laugh. If I remember anymore funnies, I'll try to post them up~!

K. Like. Tired, so bedtime now. XD

D506

2009-04-28T12:00:00.002+08:00

so tired. >.<

night classes have been cancelled, it wasn't just my imagination, so. yay.

i wanna drive

OMG. Just. DIE

2009-04-24T13:21:00.002+08:00

FUCK. Today is just a fucking bad day.

Hairdressers was closed. After going all the way down.

Went to Boon Keng for beef noodles, that was closed too.

Effing list is fucking fail.

~~fucking brat goes all fucking prickish on me.~~

Slept all the stress off, plus kendo was fun. :) Welcome to all our new juniors! :D

Clubcrawl

2009-04-24T09:52:00.002+08:00

K. Quickie before I go cut my hair. Muahahaha.

Clubcrawl was great fun, but now it leaves me with a sexy voice. -.-" I'm soooo screwed later. XD

Both days...got concussed. Well, sorta. :P First day, got hit by a shinai on the head. Wasn't wearing men. :P

Second day was waaay more epic. I didn't even see that one coming. :P The whole sword stand, with two Iaitos and a bokken came tumbling down on to my head. XD I blame no one, just the table! XD

Well. Sexy voice is painful. I want my old voice back please. And also. Lemme...go cut hair now. XD

Gay hax ears.

2009-04-21T19:45:00.002+08:00

W00t. So like, got posted to this random youtube video by Louis, and we were trying to figure out what the song was. So I decided to help using my cheat code hearing. But then...youtube screwed up the quality, and it was like...Fuzzy, so I couldn't figure out and whole phrase to start my search on.

So I spammed words. And searched. And searched. And finally, i found it. ^_^

You and me make a good team, eh? I do the title searching, and you find the song itself. Heh.

W00t. Happy. Plus the song is nice. Plus I haven't changed blogsongs in awhile. So. :P Here it is.

Starry Heavens, its from tales of symphonia. ;)

Funn~!

2009-04-21T17:55:00.002+08:00

Yes. Set up booth. Stuff happened. Fun.

Went to AMK hub with Luke and ET to buy bamboo poles. :P MUAHAHA. >.<

It was just. fun.

Rawr. too tired to really think.

Plus. I'm concentrating all my energies on something more serious.

2009-04-21T05:09:00.006+08:00

Insomniac for 2 nights. -.- RAWR. My head really hurts now. Gah.

And then, I wanted to post this random rant on blogger, but there seems to be some kinda problem. -.- Like...the page is just not loading. LOL. Effing genius.

OH FOR THE LOVE OF CHICKEN PIE. X.X I know my swears are getting random, but who cares. ;) And chicken pie is good. I'm starving. @_@

Yea. Two hours sleep. That's it. My body's going to give way sooner or later if this insomnia drags, and I have a pretty good feeling it will. -.-" No seriously, I don't think this time's insomnia is quite so...random?

Gawd, but you can't say I didn't try! I really tried to clear it all...but...

Well, at least I managed to fall asleep at nearly 3.

And then I'm awake now cos like...I just...woke up. :P I set my alarm for 6, so I thought, ahh, what the heck, lets just get up with it already.

But now I really really want those extra two hours. Which have just become a single hour. Amazingly. :P

Minced Eggs, I think I'm going to bump my head...or do something stupid...later. I just...really think so. x.x So...effing...tired. But can't. Sleep. RAWR.

Is it something about teh dark? Cos I slept no prob in the afternoon. x.x

OH NOES, I ISH AFRAIDS OF DARKS NOWS. D:

No. Effing. Way. Lol.

And now the posting page FINALLY loaded, so Imma copy this whole chunk to Blogger. :P

And now I hate blogger. Cos they don't let me do my squinty faces. Rawr.

Owl

2009-04-21T01:42:00.001+08:00

I think I shall do something I haven't done in awhile. Who cares if I get less sleep, its not like I get to sleep like that anyway. I just feel too...odd?

So imma just sit...and think. :3

For as long as it takes. To clear my head up.

Livejournal

2009-04-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Get the feeling I'm going to be turning to livejournal a lot from now on, since I can lock the posts there. I'm starting to feel the need to get things out of my system, things that would not be very appropriate for certain people to read, family probably included. Lol.

Those who got me added on livejournal, this means more work for you. MUAHAHA. Of course, not that you actually got to read it. >.> But...It IS friend's only for a reason. ^^;;

Right. XD Now that I've pumped some stuff outta my system...time to head to bed. I wanna try and wake up at 6am tomorrow, for various reasons. Maybe tonight I'll get insomnia again. I've got enough on my mind. :P

OMFG.

2009-04-20T18:21:00.002+08:00

RAWR. This is getting out of hand. Lol.

On another note. I feel terrible. >.> Rawr. Got a new sound system tho. :3 Logitech LS21. From Godma. :3 It's pwnage. :D Thanks! :D

Right. Can't really blog about it anyways. So. HAHAHA. I don't even know know why I'm typing this out. -.-

I don't think I've been this afraid in a long while. ^^;

Dulce Locura

2009-04-20T00:12:00.003+08:00

Lawl. Louis omg, you listen to emo songs too! xD I mean...the melody is awesome and all~ And I did ask you to send it to me...but. xD

The lyrics seem incredibly emo! xD Or rather, teh translation. And unless the translator was horribly off, I think it is pretty emo. :S I have no way of knowing... >.> Maybe I'll ask someone who does... :O

Hahaha. Ok. Just felt like writing that. The weird feeling is back again, and I'm not getting very happy thoughts from this. To be more precise, the thought process is going haywire. O_O Don't ask how, can't tell. ;) Hi-Mit-Su! :D

Yaya. Guess I should sleep. Still sick and all, plus...Lawl, not like I'm on solstice as I normally am anyways. And then...school's starting soon. And then...

Meh. I'm tired. So...whatever. Shall just...block out the thought process for now. Lolol lest I arrive at horribly odd or untrue conclusions. O_o

It feels vaguely familiar...yet not really. But for now, denial seems a better choice than arriving at the wrong conclusion? Although don't you feel sometimes when you're in denial...the weird thoughts come to you more...and you end up believing something that was never true in the first place? @_@

All this thinking is driving me nuts. Lol. Plus my massive miagraine. That just...suddenly started.

@_@

:3

2009-04-19T00:39:00.001+08:00

STOP MAKING ME LAUGH. X_X

NUUUUUUUUUU~

Omg I suck. >.<

2009-04-18T23:07:00.003+08:00

Lolol. Suddenly, I'm reminded of the time back in primary school...where someone cried when getting injections. And one of our classmates laughed at her. Then when it came to her, she cried too. x.x

Omg. Really really...dumb is the only word I guess. I wouldn't go extreme and say...stupid? XD But I feel like a thorough noob now. I mean...It's like saying something is stupid, but doing it yourself. XD Which is just a...really stupid thing to do? XD

Ahh well. :P

The birthday party thingy...was...odd.

Not bad. Not good. Just. Odd. O_O Wth do you want me to say to someone...whom I can't remember. -.-"

"Ohoh, mommy told me this." -.- I would've made a fool of myself.

Although perhaps my path wasn't much better, at least I made it for myself! So even if I made a fool of myself, I was happy doing it. ^_^

Lolol. I feel stoopid. And sleepy. Fell asleep in the car. Haven't done that since...primary school...when I could still be piggybacked up to our house cos daddy was young and I was super light.

But...don't quite feel like sleeping...just yet. XD

:O

2009-04-18T08:05:00.002+08:00

I...I'm awake! *Applause* Daddy managed to wake me up.

Me sister on the other hand...was supposed to meet her friend at 5. She said something about change of plans at 5.30...and right now...is sleeping like a baby. Somehow, I told you so just doesn't get any better than this. :P

Right. Off to get ready for the mass after this~

Yea...I'm awake...but I feel like throwing up. Geh. >.<

The morning's gonna be spent out...but that's gonna be a fat load of good because everybody sleeps in on saturdays anyways. -.-" I make a bet...that sis will go out for some reason or other...or mom will go out. We'll see whether I'm right. :P

APPLESAUCE! >.<

And on a final note. Today is Michelle's 21st birthday! WOOOO!! \^.^/

Happy Birthday Da Jie. :D Best wishes for the year ahead. *nods*

Now...imma be late if I don't go. :>

Year 2 Sem 1

2009-04-18T01:53:00.002+08:00

I realised. I never blogged about my current timetable!

Yes, I'm still awake, an hour later. XD

I effing LOVE our timetable for the new year. :P

School starting in the afternoon.

No school on fridays~

Imma be late for kendo on mondays tho. :P

Hmph

2009-04-18T00:56:00.004+08:00

Lol. Sorry for stuffing ya'll with emo posts the last few updates. :P

I realise that if...anyone from my family...finds this blog. I'm effing screwed. XD Hahahaha. I guess that's a bad thing...cos there are things I can tell complete strangers but not my own family. Then again, this blog really has nothing much left to hide. :) It's all...shareable stuff? :P I guess.

Lol. Someone's looking for my blog to disturb me. >.<

Alejandro, if you see this, you're at the right blog. Now stop being mean. :X

Ade wants chocolate cake. :3

Right. 1am now. Bed time. >.>

I'm not even sleepy anymore. -.-"

Don't say it like you mean it, I really don't want it. -_-

Fiona knows who I'm talking about. :3 I think she does, anyway? xD

2009-04-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

It they come back...I'll scream at them...punch them...whatever it takes to get them out of my life forever.

Because other than that, I can't think of anything else.

I'm as helpless now...as then. So much for growing stronger.

Lol. Irony.

...

2009-04-15T00:16:00.001+08:00

Money is the root of all evil...

Indeed...

Lol. I don't know what to say. Just...

Fuck.

And it strikes again

2009-04-14T20:34:00.004+08:00

I have absolutely no muse.

No really. I have no muse when I write. Inspiration just comes randomly, there is no one person or thing I stare at to get inspiration.

Just imagine, if my computer was my muse. Then I COULD just stare at the screen and wait for something to come. But no. I have no muse. Perhaps the closest would be music, but even that isn't considered my muse. Since listening to it can have either no effect or a negative effect at times.

So, I basically have no muse. I can force myself to sit down and think of something, and not come up with anything, or I can just have a random thought while walking or reading something. The latter scenario is more likely. XD

So then...I was reading this absolutely GENIUS thing called a dream novel, which is basically an effing fanfiction, but coded in such a way that a pop up asking you to type out YOUR name will later replace the appropriate words in the story. Effing genius, I tell you. Hooray for random self inserts. -.-"

Personally, I don't give a shit about that, so I ended up using the name of my OC from my SK fic. 1. It's japanese. 2. Lazy to think for something as brainless as that. There was this one story that asked for "your best friend's name" and I put Ren. Now, I know Ren can be a female name, but SK influences me in such a way that I loled. Cos during a particular scene, I pictured Ren in...crossdressing. Very wrong. XD

Back to the stories. Most of them were...pretty bad. Some actually had a pretty good concepts, but the English was total FAIL. -.-" And when stories are bad, they do one of two things to me. First, I close the window and pretend I didn't read that story. Second, I ROFL. Somehow, the english mistakes in the stories, coupled with the sometimes shallow plot, or shallow way of expressing it, resulted in the second. Or maybe I was just really bored. Cos once I got bored of laughing at those, I couldn't bring myself to continue down the list. :P

Still, I think I read too much of those. -.-" See, somehow this random opening got stuck to my head. And bugged me. So I typed it out. :P It was totally structured to be a paragraph from a romance story. =.=" Very unlike me.

And after typing out that one line. I coupled it with another line to make it more complete. Which led to a second paragraph. And then. Suddenly, I found myself staring at...of all people...ATOBE KEIGO from PoT.

Wtfffffff.

But seriously, the lines just screamed, ATOBE KEIGO. -.-"

And then the first scene was done. And I found myself thinking. "This could actually be interesting and fun to write."

So now, of all the fandoms I could have chosen for my pure romance fanfic (I'd been considering for awhile to improve my fluff skills), I've landed myself with PoT. And while its structured to be an AtobeOC. The main girl is being an idiot, who has a crush on Fuji Syuusuke. And I have no idea how its gonna turn out. -.-

But then I realise, that's part of the fun. :P

Cooking~

2009-04-14T20:28:00.003+08:00

So...the holidays are ending in a few weeks. And it's been quite a long...boring...yet fun and awesome one. Besides teh stuff I normally do, I did try some new stuff, though its still restricted to only what I feel like trying. But once I start. I get it right. :P

So...that's steak done. Cottage pie done. Both complete successes! :D Cottage pie was served on sunday, and I had people telling me they loved it, and someone even asked me for the recipe. Yay~

So...over dinner today...was wondering what my next conquest would be...What would it...

Then it struck me. CHILLI CON CARNE. :D

I love that dish, and my sister loves it, so it'll be awesome if I can cook it. :>

Hahahaha. >_<

I think I'll post the recipes for the cottage pie and maybe the steak on my livejournal, just to keep it alive. :3

To love someone for who they are, and not because they love you. Isn't that the way it should be?

Plan plan plan!

2009-04-04T16:33:00.002+08:00

I really do need to start training myself to write by following a plan. Of course, that plan can be flexible, but lunging in headfirst is not going to work forever! Plus...at least plan for the upcoming chapter or something...

Since reading the old one...I really get the feeling that it was so rushed! There was no proper research...and it was just...rushed. Not to mention, no proper development. :P

I mean. On its own, its ok. But work of that standard is simply not acceptable if I wanna get better. >_<

Although, that I know what I need to do about it shows I have improved since then.

Still...Mada mada dane. :P

Infinite

2009-03-29T01:57:00.002+08:00

Yay for tonight! Meeting up with some of 4/8 was awesome. :D

Kinda lazy to blog about the whole thing...haha. But it was fun. Lynette's phone is cool, and it has a gundam game! beyond awesome. :P

IMMA BE A FANTARD FOR A DAY.!

And I just remembered, I have candy in my bag. Got it from candy empire. :) My favouriteeeeee.

Sweet~

200erd!

2009-03-28T15:52:00.002+08:00

Haha. Just felt like doing that. I finally reached 200 posts on this new blog, second time around for the link I guess. :D Hahaha.

Gah. So...warm. From inside and out. I drank a bit of barcadi mixed with pineapple juice...and lime after...but...

My brain doesn't even feel as screwed up as the time when I drank a small bottle of sake. :O 300ml. -.-" But I feel a lot hotter. Maybe cos I was in aircon then, and didn't run up and down the stairs.

Ahh well, this is the 200erd post, I should be saying something...special to commemorate! :p

Like...uh...uh...

Gundam 00 second season final episode out tomorrow! More Setsuna and 0 raiser pwnage! Plus, final face off against a evil mastermind! :D The epic final battle dawns tomorrow! I can't wait. :D

Ok. Special enough.

And I have done absolutely no writing. D: I need to start once I get home from teh reunion.

I am

2009-03-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

the very definition of the term "oxymoron".

In other news. I managed to spot a translation error. Sure, the line in itself is easy to figure out once you got a word or two right. BUT I SPOTTED IT. Means I beat that translator. Says a lot about him/her.

Random things cos I'm feeling bored.

Raven's gate is sitting next to me now. I want to read it.

But I shall not be reading it, because of a promise I made.

I shall instead be rushing out (without quite so much rushing) chapter 4 of my SK fanfic.

That gives me about...5 days (including today), to finish a chapter. If I fail, I can go for desperate measures next time like locking myself in the toilet or closet with pen and paper, and writing it out there. Or maybe the storeroom under the stairs for light. With the strong...smell. Not odor, but not scent. Just. Smell.

The flaw in the plan, if I'm the one locking myself in, I either 1. am able to get out anytime, or 2. have to trouble my parents to get me out only when i'm done. The flaw in 1. screams at you, if you can't spot it you're in trouble, and in 2. my parents will probably think I'm crazy.

So I obviously have to find alternatives.

Somehow...maybe

2009-03-27T17:00:00.003+08:00

What I've been feeling is wrong is that I'm and emotional wreck.

Without being quite so emotional, or feeling quite so wrecked.

Or maybe, I am, but don't realise it. D:

Screwed. :o

Toradora 25!

2009-03-27T11:03:00.001+08:00

Ok! I forgive episode 24 for being bullshit, since it was sort of leading up to this. Certainly, there would've been better ways to bring things to the ending, but it turned out sorta nice so I can forgive episode 24 now. :3

Given, it wasn't awesome, but it was a nice ending.

Pre-Toradora 25

2009-03-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

According to the group that released this, this episode tied things up pretty well.

"So that's what the shitty episode 24 was for, eh?"

So. I guess that means it'll make up for the epic phail. Am expecting quite a bit now, think I might just be disappointed. :p

Still, waiting to see the end of a series which started off pretty good, went right down to beyond bad in one episode, who knows, maybe the ending can make it a EXCELLENT series all of a sudden. :P

Meh.

2009-03-26T03:28:00.001+08:00

My head hurts like crap and it feels so fuzzy I have no idea whether I'm thinking straight or not.

But for some reason. I can't sleep. GAH.

Random bouts of insomnia FTL. D:

I just can't sleeeeeeeeeeep. T___T

Sigh.

2009-03-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

Nearly done for the flashback part of my next SK fanfic update. There's still the present-day part.

Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed this chapter a lot, even though its being such a pain and lengthening itself through various forms of trickery. It's just tiring, I was up till 3 last night, and woke up rather early today. And not all of that has been spent on actual writing. Planning and choreographing scenes took up quite a bit of time too, as did procrastination.

See, when Ade gets writing, nothing can stop her. She'll even forgo food to continue! Nothing, absolutely NOTHING can stop her. Except for one deadly poison.

A writer's block. When I stumble onto difficult parts which I can't seem to get right, man, the things I do to distract myself. Even thinking in circles is better than actually typing ideas out. :P

Still, blocks and doubts and all, I'm at the...ending mark for the first part of the update. And let me tell you, this ending IS something to speak of, because its the length of my previous two updates COMBINED. XD And I'm not even done for this act yet. Meh.

Well. At emo goodbye run away muahaha part now, so...enough procrastination. XD

A new post cos blogger pissed me off

2009-03-24T13:01:00.001+08:00

What I hate about blogger:

IT DELETES RANDOM BITS FROM MY POSTS. LIKE THAT WHOLE CHUNK I TYPED.

So, apparently

2009-03-24T12:48:00.004+08:00

Gundam 00 Episode 24 was nothing short of epic. Aeolia gave Setsuna cheat codes, poor little Katagiri finally got his girl, and was so happy about it he forgot he held the remote control for the killer robots he had unleashed upon the ship, and proceeded to get them with a handgun. Rather sweet end (I hope) to Louise and Saji's conflict, aww, hugs and kisses. Well, just a really big hug. Also, no Marina song. Three Cheers to that. :D

Can't wait for episode 25. :3

And another apparently. Apparently, I'm from RGS! HAHAHA. Nah, but I got asked this by a lady at the hospital, and you know what? CHIJ Toa Payoh still holds the stereotype image of "good english speakers", although the fact that she asked whether I was from RGS does say a lot. :P "No wonder" just doesn't cut it as an afterword. HAHAHA.

With broken wings, even you can't fly high.

2009-03-23T00:38:00.002+08:00

Found it written on a random piece of paper. Have no idea whether I read it somewhere or came up with it by myself.

But it's true, at least to me. :)

Dobutso...thing

2009-03-22T21:56:00.004+08:00

Some weird fortune telling...quiz...thingy. That Jassy tagged me to...do? On facebook. Posting the results here for all to LOL at how unlike me some stuff are. :P AND the bad english. :/

You are Red Monkey, whose simple and natural personality is easily understood by those around you.

(Ok...makes sense so far.)

You can make others feel safe.

(If you say so?)

You will take on any favor asked, and have a strong volunteer spirits.

(Not really. I volunteer when I want to.)

Even if you get angry, you don't hold that against people for long time.
(Ooh. True on most counts.)

You are simple forthright person.

(I...guess so?)

You are a person with sensitivity.

If you use this sensitivity at work and in hobbies, you will achieve great results.

(Ok...Sensitivity in what sense? Heh. Oversensitive SENSES are right, anything else...who knows?)

You should learn a lot while young, and use that experience to help the society in the future.

(Ok...Haha. *learns by anime*)

You also possess great talent in carrying out matters and handling it efficiently.

(I DO?! ZOMGWTFBBQHAX)

You are a very active person.

(True enough? Unless I wanna stay at home and...do nothing.)

You are smart and calculating.

(This makes me sound more like...sly...and cunning. O_O)

You can be rather short tempered, and will not tell your true feelings.

This may make you bit lonely, so don't forget to have a broad mind.

(Ok...short tempered, check. Hides true feelings? Sometimes. Broad enough so far, I hope.)

You are a quick learner, so you will be favored by your boss.
But if there isn't a person who can set an example, you can not carry out work efficiently.
You may be suited to stay as number two than to stand at the top.

(That suits me to a tee, I think. Quick...I guess. Needs example, most of the time, but can learn by self equally well anyway. Does that make me gay hax?)

You are independent and keeps your own pace.
So it may be better to keep away from the impossible.

(Yada yada. I actually like teh impossible. I come out stronger from failure. ^_^)

Because you are a popular person, you will be asked out by many people.
Try and turn down offers nicely, or you may disturb the living pace and your own personal relationships.

(Ok. This is just NOT true. HAHAHA especially about teh asked out by many people. :P)

Your marriage fortune is very good.

You will do great as a housewife and also as the person committed to do good for the society.

(OH SHIT HOUSEWIFE? NOOOOOOOOOO. If I do get married, I'll PUNCH the person who tries to turn me into housewife. Doing gay little things like cleaning, cooking, washing, gossiping, NOT my kinda thing. I have dreams and goals. BLEH TO YOU!)

HAHAHAHAHA. Fortune telling is bullshit. XD And here's why.

Most of them go by date. The thing is, many people born withing the same month can be completely different, but get the same fortune telling results! These results are rigged so that at least one truth will apply to most people and...VIOLA! :D

No scientific proof I'm giving, can't be bothered to look, but if you don't believe me, get two people born under the same horoscope to take any such "horoscope" quiz. :P Make sure they're really different in personality too! Ahh, the wonder of stereotypes. :P

Nostalgia

2009-03-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

Dug out some really old pieces of paper that I brought over from the old house and threw into my closet along with all my precious books. Heh. Read through them, feels really nostalgic.

Ahh, the age where I was obsessed with the name Alex cause of its meaning "brave warrior" or something to that effect. Where I wanted my male and female protaganists to be called Alex and Alexandra respectively, but was sorely disappointed cos I realised how lame it would be that all of the characters sounded like they had the same name. :p

If I remember correctly, that one was started waaaaay back in primary school. I still remember crying when I thought I'd lost all my files in that sorry excuse of a computer. XD The late nights, waking up at 2am when my parents were all asleep and couldn't bug me to sleep, and ears always pricked for teh slightest sound of my dad waking to go to the toilet. JUMP INTO BED AND PRETEND YOU'RE SLEEPING. Heh.

It's always been precious to me, even before I considered doing it seriously. In secondary school, there were the random stories and poems that I thought up and shared with my classmates, although I never finished the "novel" I was working on. If I remember correctly, it was a Gundam Seed fanfiction. VERY Mary-Sue OC. :P

Mary-Sue...Gary-Stu's, I insist those are necessary to a good fantasy story, and they actually are, but only if constructed the right way. Not all-powerful sues and stus, but human ones who have the strength to surpass obstacles. Or something. :P

All my RenOC ideas. :P Tsk. A wave of at least 10, only 5 of which made it to my ideas book, and only 1 written out so far. Back then, I thought, "So many ideas, so little time. i'll be 20 by the time I write them all."

MY DEDICATED HAO OC. Chapter in progress and untouched for 2 years or more. :/ HAHAHAH.

I think...I need to start making a serious effort soon. I'll never live through it if all I ever managed were half-assed attempts that flopped and if I gave up just because of those flops.

Manga partners, anyone? Like Bakuman! I got many many manga-type ideas that just would FAIL if only expressed through words. Haha. Or maybe not so many. But. It IS something I wanna do as well.

It all began when a little tomboy with an overactive imagination was born. There's no escape, my brain is always churning up crazy stories, whether I actually get around to writing them or not.

A tribute maybe. Maybe memories flooding from nostalgia which I just wanted to write out. This post turned out way longer than it should be. XD

Toradora 24

2009-03-21T02:26:00.003+08:00

Right. I was planning to go to sleep after that last post. But then toradora 24 finished downloading. so I watched it. And...

I won't go and make this a published review on my wordpress because my opinions on this episode are simply too biased at this point...so a personal rant here to help me shove this off before I head to bed.

THIS EPISODE EFFING SUCKS.

No, seriously, this ONE episode makes me wanna hate the whole world of toradora and how effing screwed up it is. I've had issues with the Taiga x Ryuji pairing for awhile now...but this went beyond having issues.

Lets see. Minorin has been shoved aside. Ryuji suddenly decides he's in love with Taiga and suggests they run away and get married right after having ran away from their two very angry mothers and having said VERY VERY VERY BASTARD things to his mother...

Screwed up kid number 1.

Taiga...says that everything she's ever wished for has ended up breaking. So she wants to break the jinx. AND WOWEE THE ONLY THING IN HER STUPID HEAD THAT MEANS BREAKING IS MARRYING RYUJI! AS IF HAVING RYUJI RETURN HER FEELINGS WAS NOT ENOUGH ALREADY. BAKA!!!

Screwed up kid number 2.

Minorin says she doesn't encourage their actions...and hands them her checkbook. -.- WAY TO GO GENIUS. Is what I wanted to say at first. But what she said after makes sense, that she has no right to decide what they're gonna do and if that's what they wanna do....

Right. You know what? That's not excuse enough. You don't have the right to decide what they're gonna do, but YOU DON'T HAVE TO HAND THEM YOUR EFFING CHECKBOOK. They wanna do something asshole stupid like running away, LET THEM FACE THEIR OWN EFFING TROUBLES AND SOLVE IT ON THEIR OWN. After all, they think they're ADULT enough. SMACK THEM IN THE FACE WITH IT.

But Minorin...really...cried. And I feel kinda sorry for her. But kinda pissed off as well.

So we'll label her not-so screwed up kid number 3.

Oh wait! Did I forget to mention that Ryuji went home to get stuff, found his mother had run away AND DIDN'T EFFING CARE ENOUGH TO CALL OF RUNNING AWAY WITH TAIGA TO FIND HER?! SHE WAS STILL SICK AND ALL! WTF. One episode he needs to grow some balls. Next episode his balls are the effing size of an apartment building.

SUPER screwed up kid number 1.

And taiga, JUST BECAUSE HER ACTIONS AND WORDS ARE SO EFFING STUPID.

SUPER screwed up kid number 2.

And yada yada yada. Kitamura was a baka too. and...ami...

WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS HOW IDIOTIC THE WHOLE THING WITH AMI WAS.

After all has been said and done, THERE IS STILL NO DEVELOPMENT ON AMI'S PART! It was like, hey, it'll be fun to have a blue haired model in here. So lets throw her in. She'll fall in love with Ryuji and we'll toy with the viewers because they'll never know for sure if she's in love with the guy! And we don't even need to do closure or development on her because she's just a random minor character we decide to make major!

THE WORST FUCKING EPISODE. THE WORST.

I'm just jumping with excitement to see how much of a fucktard the final episode will be. I HOPE it's the final episode. I don't know if I can bring myself to watch it after today's MORE THAN EPIC FAIL. But I will, who knows, it might redeem the disaster that was episode 24.

Now to edit out all the ~~FUCKING~~ and change them to effing. -.- Any left uncensored are purely unintentional, apart from the last two, just because.

Told you guys it was extremely biased. =.=

Lets see

2009-03-21T01:33:00.002+08:00

Time really waits for no man. Don't know if that's a good or bad thing, but that's a fact so we'll have to live with it.

I succeeded with something I told myself to do a while back, so I think I can throw away that paper I wrote it on. But then again, it'll be good to keep it as a reminder. Ah, whatever, the little bird has taken flight! w00t. :P

Not sure as to how exactly things work inside of me right now, in more ways than one. For one, my physical body has been going crazy. Inner turmoil...not really existant at this point of time, and when it does exist, feels like nothing more than a hot day. Irritating but bearable. Haha. But however things are working, I got past what I deemed to be a barrier. w00t.

GOT TICKETS TO FINAL FANTASY CONCERT. heh. I owe my mom 240. <3

Ok. I do realise that I am being VERY random here. I'll continue, cos my eye...well...I can't find my eye mo and it gets worse when I rub. So. HANDS OFF. Heh.

I heh and meh a lot more nowadays. :O

Remembered some stuff, not even a twinge of regret. Good cos...well, its bad to regret anything right? Bad cos. Maybe it means I'm heartless! :O

Joined a New Zealand Hogwarts roleplay...thingy...with Jassy. So far I have one account, her twin brother (BIG surprise there eh?), Akira Akamatsu. google it if you're interested cos I'm lazy to link, since my internet is LAGGING, prolly due to the godly amounts of things I'm downloading. Heh.

Huntik has a pretty good concept but very rushed development IMO. It's like. Little gay boy meets genius girl. Has crush on her. Girl likes genius adult guy (no worries, she's at least in college, i think), and then...out of the blue.

GIRL LIKES BOY?! ZOMGWTFBBQHAX.

Seriously, GAY. And I lol at the suddeness, cheesiness and forcefulness of her so called CONFESSION.

"I like you" HUGS.

Nowhere close, dudes. NOT EVEN THAT.

"Your energy keeps us all going. Keeps me going at least." HUGS.

She barely finishes her line and goes on to hug him. I knew that english dubs for anime were screwed, but C'MON! Your own animation too?! You need better voice actors.

Eh, that was a sudden review of huntik. :O Let's turn our attention to Gundam 00 then.

Still with me? I commend you. :P

Episode 23 was. FRICKIN AWESOME. ZOOM ZOOM SUICIDE GUNDAM WITH CLONES INSIDE BOOM BASH BANG. :P Hahahaha. Gaylord setsuna. *bows*

Speaking of reviews. I could probably turn in an official review on my wordpress for Huntik. :P a tag and category CARTOON. That would work. And I owe for gundam. and toradora.

RYUJI NEEDS TO GROW SOME BALLS. quoted from the fansub group's release post. Coalguys. :)

I've been watching slash reading too much black cat lately. Chionged 185? chapters in a day. And 6 episodes (the rest are not on hand). GAWD. :/ that stupid XD face is stuck to my head now. No seriously.

XD LETS GO OVER THERE.

XD WE HAVE NO MONEY BUT LETS SPEND MONEY ANYWAY.

Not that I dislike it or anything, I find the series rather good, and I like the weapons they use. :) I mean, a steel ball with THRUSTERS?! That's as godlike as a gundam, only...IT HAS MORE BALLS.

Now, the funniest story is how I was accquainted with this series. In vietnam, hotel room, bored, animax. DUB. D:

Well, it was near the end anyways. So there was really minimal talking. The guy in the black coat looked epic cool. Plus he had a cool gun. :P Someone mentioned black cat. Took note, figured i'd find something from that, came home and wikied. XD

I had NO life the last few hours in vietnam spent in the hotel. 2 TIMES i watched HSM. gawd. :/ But it was the best thing on teevee. And Gintama...well...watching it on a small screen kinda gave me headache. :P

BY THE WAY.

I think I'm pretty much done. Ohoh Fiona! If you see this. I got .hack! :D

Adieu for now. Heh.

2009-03-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

Back from vietnam! Although not many people knew I was going since I didn't say anything. :P heh. Oopsie?

But! Pics another time. I'm just making this quick rant in the midst of my planning for fanfic. Because I just thought the STUPIDEST thing.

I got all hyped up over this ability my character would have. See, she had a near death encounter and that led to her being able to see ghosts. cool right?

The only problem is...the fandom is SHAMAN KING. They see ghosts there like there's no tomorrow! Blooody hell. -.-

Hahahaha. probably one of the stupidest mistakes i've ever made. -.- wanting to make a shaman see ghosts. ;/

I guess I start rofling at myself. :P

2009-03-06T15:56:00.002+08:00

Am in pain.

Nuff said. ;_;

That aside, I got my new keyboard. It's so much nicer to press. :D

yes, no more stiff buttons which are damn tiring to press. No more awkward slash button beside the left shift key. Hooray!

The only nit I have to pick, is the backspace key. It's a little...smaller than standard. :/

Which results in \ instead of a backspace. heh.

I'm bored. And tired. And not going for training later. Not just cos I can't train. It's damn uncomfortable to sit there like that. :/ With my arm in its current state.

Wondering if I should go see a doctor. Then again, what can a doctor do?

"you pulled your muscle. Rest. we'll put your arm in cast and sling."

"But teh more it stays bent, the more it hurts!"

"Then...nothing I can do..."

SEE?!

T__T Can't bike tml. I guess that leaves blading out of the question since I can't brake.

One-handed biking maybe? :(

Steak~

2009-03-05T15:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's was ok. It was a bit bland, and well-done, but it was passable. Barely. :/

Today was epic win. XD It was medium, a lil too salty, nice and juicy, and awesome. :D

Look's like I'll make it in time. :D

Now to get baked potatos right. :S

Trust You (full size)

2009-03-04T18:40:00.001+08:00

The intro sounds really good. >_>

Lacrimosa from Kuroshitsuji was released today too. Shall get it soon. XD

And that's the damn problem

2009-02-18T20:13:00.004+08:00

Sleepy. So...sleepy. Zzzzz. >.<

Well, I should be thankful that I have managed to wake up for all my papers so far. :P I've become a sleepy pig as of late. >.> Maybe its the "bad" effect samurai mentioned. Too many late nights eh...

But I can't resist! It's so much cooler at night, plus I don't feel guilty switching the aircon on at night.

Tomorrow is gonna be a killer, is it just me or is the heat getting worse? I think my body is getting heaty from all this, can just taste the blood from my throat. For two days straight already. Even though I keep drinking and drinking. Phlegm too. Tsk.

Blah. Papers so far have been...quite ok, actually. The hardest so far was MBSN. I might actually fail. >.> Phail. :P

Oh. I think. I'm getting clumsier. >.> And stronger, at teh same time. No idea what's going on.

All I know is. I was just. Swinging/moving my hand...bash against the wall it goes. Like.

Bish. 0_0

It hurt. Like crap. >.>

I don't know my own strength :P

Is what I'd like to say. But isn't this more of. Control problems? Using so much for. Nothing? Or rather, unaware I'm using so much? XD Blah. Equates to klutz at the end of the day.

I actually zoned out in the exam today. Not thinking about the pain, but. >.> Imagining what QC or editing would be like. HAHAHAHHAA. Kya, crazy me. =.=

And earlier, at home, I was trying to imagine a Digimon Adventure 03. In 01, they had crests. In 02, they had digimentals (I absolutely refuse to use the term from the retarded dub.). What would they have had in 03?

The result was quite. Retarded. >_> I started imagining. Since they brought up the thing about. Chosen children not just from japan.

A multi-racial group. One carries a Katana. Another a longsword. And so on. :P

No wonder they didn't have another season. XD

OHOH. It's been a while since I've blogged. So I missed out quite a bit.

VALENTINE'S DAY WAS AWESOME! Did I mention that already? Haha I can't remember so, IT WAS AWESOME. :D

I mean. What can be better than spending a day with friends? Less crowd. *nods* Less pink.

DEFINITELY. >.> I was nearly blinded by all that pink. BUT I GOT MY ICE CREAM AND YI LIN AND AVRIL AND JONNY AND LOUIS COULDN'T BAN ME.

And Serjia overslept like nuts. =.= Epiczzz. :P

So. An idea popped into my head after that concerning how much I hated crowds. And I came up with an ideal situation with...Oh no who did I discuss it with.

Ahh heck. >_>

Anyways. Ideal valentines, IF there was someone I wanted to celebrate with, would go along the lines of:

Ade: Eh. Tomorrow valentines, here's the plan.

Whoever: ?

Ade: You stay at home, I stay at home.

Whoever: !

Ade: ya. We go out some other day. I hate crowds. So stay at home.

I mean, any day can be romantic, valentines day is seriously just over commercialised hype created to make you spend money. It's like.

BUY ROSES. BUY I LOVE YOU TOYS. IT MEANS YOU LOVE HER. =.=

Hahahaha. No insult, some people come up with cool ways to celebrate it without spending too much, and if the gift is sincere, I've nothing against it. But. I just hate the crowd. =.=

Hahahhaah.

Lately. I feel like.

Going up a mountain. With nothing but. A typewriter? Pen and paper. And a backpack with clothes. Stay in a mountain cabin. Shower at waterfall. Nearest town is...3-4 hours away? Walk down the mountain to buy supplies every day. Wake up at 4 am. The rest of the day when I'm back is spent.

First and foremost, to find myself. O_O I've been pondering on that a lot really. I think its something I need to clarify with myself, even if no one else needs it.

Second.Well. Writing of course. I realise that I have a long long long way to go. But that's why I must try even harder.

Not a hermit for the rest of my life, just enough for me to settle myself and clear my head, perhaps get some inspiration.

it'll just be me, myself, nature, and my pen and paper.

Yummilicous. :p

I seriously wonder if there's still a place like that though.

I like the way things are now. I really do.

But that's the damn problem.

Like is all there is.

Editing or QC

2009-02-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking for awhile. And somehow. I really really want to try my hand at fansubbing. >_> Been reading up quite a bit on the processes and programs used in their arsenal.

And the more I read. The more I wanna try my hand at it. BUT.

I don't know japanese. :P

Which is...good? Cos that's required to be. a editor. But its bad as well. Cos I don't have NO knowledge of japanese. I have. A lil. Plus I did pick japanese as my elective module.

T__T

On the other hand. There's QC. Another option for someone scarcely proficient in Japanese. >_>

GAH.

To do, or not to do, that is the question.

I even went ahead and downloaded mirc for the sake of joining the irc channel. Plus. i can learn so much more if I join their team. T___T

"Small Two Of Pieces"

2009-02-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Funny english aside, this song is really really nice. >_> I wanna play xenogears now. :/

I'm more alive than I've ever been

2009-02-13T22:03:00.003+08:00

Is what I'd like to say. Since I made and somehow very easily followed my resolve.

Haha. But I really can't say for sure. More alive than I've ever been? That's saying a lot.

Bleh.

Went to TTSH for physio today. After all of two sessions, I'm well enough to do it on my own. Yay.

Went to Novena square for breakfast after that. Been awhile since I went there. The flower shop outside Cold Storage was selling blue roses again. They've been stocking up every valentine's as far as I can remember, and that's quite a while. :P

Ahh, but roses are expensive. Maybe I should have bought for my sis tho. She's flying off tml. :/ Work related thing. But its supposedly damn slack.

But then. Roses are expensive. And they'd be dead after she sees them for all of two minutes? XD Cos then she'd be flying, and they'll be stuck in a little vase, wilting away.

I'd be a murderer of roses! D:

Blah. Neh mind. Next year. :D

earliest valentine's greeting of the year: 6pm, 13/02/2009

w00t.

this valentine's, will be spent with some very important people. :D Namely moomoo, oinkoink and (maybe) heehaw. and then. we've got puppy. and the sadistic samurai.

omg. puppy. damn long never see him liao. <3

2009-02-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

I changed my blogsong! Cos I figured it was about time. Plus my blog is dead. D:

Haha. *revives*

Hmm. I can't find the lyrics for the song. So I shall do it by ear. :D

Well. The english parts anyways. :D

So far away from my home sweet home.

Day by day from land to land I roam.

something...something...

Oh how I long for my home sweet home.

EH. No patience for this. XD

and I realised

2009-01-29T21:17:00.001+08:00

I haven't blogged in quite a long while. :P

Ok. Editing got switched from having a full week to having all of 4 hours. We finished in about 3 tho, but BOTH times we tried rendering, our file was 1gb. And then Lydia just TOUCHED the freaking mouse and did the clicking for us, settings remained the same, and suddenly it was 16mb. WTF >.<

Hahaha. That aside, I'm quite happy with the result, thanks to all our talents who helped. ^.^

Today was Randal's. I'm glad its over. Shall not elaborate.

So. I'm essentially free beside Interviewing, and Dreamweaver ICA, which quite frankly, is screwed. I HATE DREAMWEAVER. D:

Well. Off to. Eat dinner. And then. Get some mirror's edge in. :D

Hahahaha.

troubled

2009-01-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

tsk. its always like that. Feel troubled about something. Try not to think so much. Yet somehow, without trying, everything seems to confirm your worries. Or if it doesn't, you unavoidably think about it.

Running around and around in circles, just desperately running, hoping to reach the finish line, but there is NO finish line because it is, after all, a circle, with no beginning or an end.

Run...and run.

Try and get past it. Try your very best to ignore it. Make a resolution. Feel better. Then it all crashes down on you again.

I hate this feeling, I hate it beyond anything I have ever hated in my life.

And I just keep running, stumbling around in the dark, not even bothering to feel ahead in teh darkness since I can't see. And each stumble adds a desperation, a heart-wrenching fear inside, and panic consumes from within, and you stumble more and MORE.

And before you know it, you feel yourself falling for teh first time.

If you're lucky, its just a small dent in teh road, you can get back up easily.

But sooner or later, there's gonna come a hole 7 foot deep.

And if you survive the fall, you're gonna have to find some way to get back up with broken limbs and whatever.

And tehn you can't run anymore, you can only drag your feet.

And the darkness keeps expanding. Getting bigger and bigger. Left deeper and deeper.

All at once, teh darkness disappears. But does it really?

Or is it still there, deep inside?

Its time. I made up my mind on teh bus just now.

But still. I don't like this feeling.

This sucks. :(

and this little bird wonders

2009-01-22T12:17:00.001+08:00

if its about time to give up trying to fly above the mountain.

weird. not freaky. or maybe a bit freaky

2009-01-22T11:31:00.000+08:00

I had a really really really odd dream. XD It wasn't silent hill freaky. so no, its not stress from silent hill.

Lets see. walking. it seemed like school's corridors. then. talking. then. 0_0. and. suddenly. turn into...my mom's room? like. my mom's room is in school? and even better, its her bedroom from our old place which is LONG GONE. and then. weird aircon. that you on the room aircon. then the on at the study room, will on, except, this one is like a water cooler, and its right outside her door, near the toilet door. but its not a water cooler. AIRCON GAS COMES OUT OF IT ZOMGWTFBBQHAX.

And then. we start playing some strange card game. someone. whom i was walking and talking with. starts crying. O_O cos gonna beat some other...guy? and then. O_O

and then i wake up, and think.

wtf.

:(

awesome day

2009-01-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

Lets see. Filming was really draining, but it was really fun as well. ^.^

Thanks to moomoocow, oinkoink and hee haw for being our talents. :D

Yes heehaw, you'll get oscars one day. the jomjom oscars. :P

After taht, we went to YCK mrt where we met Samurai.

He made the biggest mistake of his life by showing me his swiss...army...card. XD I confiscated it. ;) Until night time. :P

Arcade, finished the whole of silent hill in three continues, improved tremendously from my first time. XD

Sore throat from yelling. =.= But somehow, when i start yelling, i hit more things. XD

Basketball. And then dinner. And carcar game. I drifted. ;)

Hahahaha. Today was awesome fun. So sad oinkoink had to leave earlier. :(

after that was moo and me teaming up vs the samurai. And he claims he can't hit girls, so i had an unfair advantage. YAY. XD

But. Today was so epic. Haha. <3

stand on my own two feet

2009-01-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

because I can't keep depending on others, can i?

And yet I learnt the hard way once, never to bottle it up.

But I just don't feel like talking about it.

I think this wednesday is more important to me than I thought. For more than obvious reasons.

A farm outing with a sadistic samurai. Bad combination. Tsk. Better bring a fire extinguisher. :P

Total madness

2009-01-15T09:45:00.004+08:00

Was up till like. 4. Finishing up with the exporting. Cos there were problems here and there. But anyways. Its done now, finally, and I'm uploading. My new AMV if you guys haven't realised. :P Hahahaha.

Gundam 00 again, a PROPER one this time. XD

You know what really shocks me? The fact that I listen and I can sorta remember what I want placed inside, the exact thing happening in the clip, but not the bloody episode. XD hahaha.

Oh well, I'll leave you guys to stare at this l33t timeline. I think you can't even see some cuts because this is so effing zoomed out, but I wanted to show you the whole timeline at one shot. The bit at the end is just a bit more to the end, so nothing's missed. XD

LOL

2009-01-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

It's up and running, my new com that is.

And I'm using chrome for this desktop.

The keyboard is gonna take a little getting used to.

hahaha.

\lets try not backspacing my mistakes.

\I'm erally really tired. :/

crapfic

2009-01-08T02:02:00.002+08:00

GAWD! MY EYES! THEY BURN!

D:

I just read what I daresay is one of the WORST fanfics I have EVER read in my life...

Shit. Now I'm reminded of why I NEVER read stories unless the summaries were REALLY REALLY good.

I should have expected it from the title and summary I guess.

The things I do when I'm sleepy. Sigh. I'm going to have nightmares or something. XD

Sigh. Haven't done this in awhile.

Summary: Yoh and his friends are the richest and most popular guys in their school. What if Yoh will fall in love to a transferee student that is known for her coldhearted attitude and has a nickname “ice queen”.. What do you think will his friends be thinking about him if they found out?

WTF IS UP WITH TRANSFEREE.

Fall in love to...

gawd, you know what? I'll give this its proper place. Now if I can only find that forum...

days like this make me even gladder I'm where I am.

2009-01-06T22:10:00.001+08:00

Today was cool. One of those ultra cool days that you actually want to blog about. Seriously.

We DMSM were treated to a fantastic guest speaker today. We had a film clinic, and Mr Royston Tan, director of 881 and 12 lotus amongst recent works, came over to talk to us about what its like to be a film director and all.

I can't really mention some of what we said, but lets just say Cut owns MDA rap. XD

Although we didn't mention MDA rap. But the MDA rap was pretty extreme. XD

It was SO cool, but it truly is tough to be a filmmaker in Singapore.

There are cool bits IF you're an award winning dude tho.

Still, experiences like these make it even more awesome to be in poly.

HAH! You JC poker faces (*coughcough dolphin poker face) don't get extreme cools like this. ;) Then again, my course is full of cooly retarded examples, more or less. :P

Has anything really changed?

2009-01-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

Y'know, I say I don't really care, but perhaps I do. I was so frantic when it felt so different, I went one huge round, and when the day came, I was so busy looking for another answer that I didn't realise I'd missed out on what I really needed.

The fact was that it wasn't different in a bad way, or all that different at all.

Hahaha. Just a random thought. :/

Aizawa Lyn. With long hair. And a Katana instead of that fat sword. I like. :P

Overtaken

2009-01-03T23:35:00.002+08:00

My second amv took over what took my first...a month...to reach...in...Slightly over 2 days.

Insanity. :P Gundam 00 really is SUPER popular la XD Especially since its still on-going. Tsk. XD

Andand. Louis is the magic music finder! Thanks much again!!!!!!!!

Now I just need to get my com all settled, and I can start a wave of amvs. XD

<3

Happy new year!

2009-01-01T12:40:00.002+08:00

:D May the year ahead be a blessed one for everyone.

I'm posting up some random resolutions (unbelievable for some) because I'm bored.

1. COOK MORE. Yesterday's Miso Udon was niceee, and my miso soup is getting tastier, and I can put in tofu now, unlike the plain soup of yesteryear. Next comes the meat soup and stir fry! XD Cooking for meself gives a strange sense of accomplishment, especially when its DELISH. :D Plus, might as well make use of my sensitive taste buds right?

2. Update fanfiction more regularly. :3

3. Actually put in effort and COMPLETE nano this year.

4. don't get lazy cos scriptfrenzy is too easy. :3

5. LOVE AND PEACE. XD

K. Off to do my Gundam 00 episode 13 review, before watching rurouni kenshin. XD

Projects

2008-12-30T15:05:00.001+08:00

Mum said we'll go look around for parts next thursday and friday when there are no lessons.

Yay, new CPU soon. <3

So, i'd better make a note here of songs I DO wanna do next.

A naruto koibumi, just for the heck of it.

A naruto bluebird, biggg emphasis.

A naruto warmness of the soul? :/

Yea. K, thats it.

You fall far.

2008-12-28T03:39:00.002+08:00

Wow. That's a long way down.

Helloooooooooo?

Loooloooloo.

Lol's at echo.

I hate.

People who judge without understanding the situation.

Which is pretty much everyone, including myself, cos we all make that mistake sometimes, don't we?

But I realised. Wisdom presented in such judgement. Is meaningless.

So, does that mean there is such a thing as meaningless wisdom? I'd say no, because something as such, does not deserve to be thought of as wisdom, does it?

I hate MFM. So much calculation involved, formulas presented.

That's why I hated math. And never bothered with math.

But much as I hate math. Much as I hate MFM. It exists.

Its a part of the world.

And when in rome, do what romans do.

I dislike that.

But sometimes, you just gotta live with it, don't you?

I disliked wearing a pinafore for my school uniform back in secondary school.

But did that mean I could not wear it?

If only. :/

What time is midnight mass?

2008-12-25T02:09:00.002+08:00

Midnight.

NO SHIT?! XD

Silly questions people ask sometimes. :P

That aside, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. >:D

Y'know, for the past few years, christmas has been doing this to me.

Sneaks up on me, catches me unawares, seems to have come so quickly.

Zoned out at the thought of midnight mass.

But by the time its all over, it REALLY is christmas. :D

Christmas is a time, christmas is a time, christmas is a time, for loveeeeeeee~

:P

I love you all. :3 Really. <3

what to do

2008-12-22T02:13:00.002+08:00

When someone is so sick of trying, and just feels like giving up?

I have had my fair share of this feeling, yet somehow, everytime it seems the previous method doesn't apply, or even better, "what method?"

The irony of this whole thing, it took something like that to help me realise that I've been looking at the wrong place.

Because, time rushes by too quickly, everything is over too soon, just by being with you.

That's not something that can happen...so easily...is it?

Especially not for me.

K, spoiler here.

*DAMN EFFING ITCHY! T__T and it hurts so bad.*

Ok. Back to topic.

Yes, I have a short attention span. Somehow. :/

Lets go to Kovan arcade one day, we can try the samurai game! ^^ We'll see how samurai fares against his foes. :X

Samurai piglet. Piglet samurai. Pigpig samurai? Samurai pigpig.

Hmm. Tough decisions. XD

Right. Just saw the beginning of this post. I really went damn off track there, eh.

Forget it. I won't give up, but I won't try especially hard either.

For now, I'll just wait and see.

Little drummer boy

2008-12-21T20:05:00.001+08:00

It's my new blog song. :D Hahaha. My version's by Bing Crosby. :X

:D

sweatdrops

2008-12-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

Now, I'm REALLY glad I'm tougher than I seem. =.=

Omg, that effectively means, everything I've been worrying about the past few days a LIE. XD

:/

What the heck. :P

I'm still slightly off. +.+ Shall not say why.

Well, actually. I don't know myself. That part wasn't a lie. XD

Pathetique

2008-12-20T10:27:00.003+08:00

Lol. Really, you are.

Because it's everyone's fault except for yours, isn't it? Everybody hurts you but you haven't hurt anybody, eh?

I wonder, if so many people have supposedly hurt you, are you just soft, or maybe the problem lies with YOU?

Hmm.

ANYWAYS.

Shall blog. About stuff I said I'd blog about. XD Aka kendo camp.

First day was kinda insane, yet funny. Hahaha. The highlights were the shiais, and the commentary after that from looking at the score sheets. Hahahaha! Here's an example.

"Adeline...lost to Yen Ling. And Yen Ling lost to Jia Ying. But Adeline drew with Jia Ying. *gives confused face*"

"Ernest Tan pushed his way to victory against Oliver"

:S

The guys matches were cool too, the court I was videoing was dominated by men, quite literally. Every single point that was scored was a men point. XD Insanity. And Zhen Yi's fast attack was cool. :3 KC beat Gabriel, so that was epic.

After that, we walked over to amk to get, well, supposedly breakfast, but nobody ever cares. :S We got to NTUC, and decided to continue the practice of getting our cushies at the same time. ^^ It's gonna become a kendo camp tradition, yay. :D More and more seniors are joining us! ^___^

Got sushi and all as well.

Went back to school, watched videos of our matches.

AFTER eating our sushi, sharing around and crapping. XD

Had a bowl of instant noodles, another action carried over from the previous camp.

We ordered pizza, we ate pizza, we were happy. XD

So full as well. After that was...they were practicing kata? I went to watch em, and then when they were done, gorgor, Wen Jun, Oliver, Jordan, Zhen Yi, Suresh and me stayed up chatting. Wen Jun and Jojo went to sleep around 3? The rest of us stayed up until 4, crapping like anything.

Woke up at 6 the next day. Two hours of sleep, plus intensive training, WOOHOO! XD

To be continued.... :P

@_@

2008-12-20T01:09:00.002+08:00

I knew I wanted to type something but forgot it. But I remembered. So anyways.

I guess there is one good thing about this. It shows I am stronger. I feel saddened, but not drained. Far from it, actually. XD

When sorrow doesn't come knocking

2008-12-20T00:23:00.001+08:00

I go looking for it. =.= No really. I swear.

This can't be happeningggggg. Lol.

Epic win?

2008-12-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

Not as much as I'd expected.

Looking forward to it for all the weirdest reasons. -.-"

Who knows. Maybe I'm just avoiding the other reasons, and trying to convince myself they aren't true.

Hmp.

Kendo camp...uh. Will blog about it...soon.

Standing testament to the endless ebb and flow of time

2008-12-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

It's evidence enough that I have changed.

No matter how tired I was, it was always enough to make me go hyper.

Yet now, I'm hesitating.

Considering another option.

Maybe I'm just well and truly dead tired, with all the lack of sleep.

I'm quite desperate, had sugar spam, COKE with hotcakes and syrup for breakfast, but it obviously did nothing to help.

:/

Bed now. Night.

Sugar sweet

2008-12-14T18:36:00.004+08:00

Today was a very very very long day. :S Sleepy now. >_>

Woke up at 6, headed to serangoon mrt to meet Aaron and Jack, we were planning to cab down. But daddy sent us all the way in the end. He got a LIL lost. :X HAHAHAHA.

Grading was...weird. I think the sensei's were feeling strict? XD :S I don't know, its just weird that EVERYONE only climbed one level, or got failed somehow. @_@

Ok, enough about that. After that, we headed to tampines to eat. Split into two groups there, the girls and jordan and gorgor went over to pizza hut. I was the only girl with the rest of the guys, aka Zhen Yi, Oli, ET, KC, SS, Luke, Gregory, Dwayne, Kai, Glenn...I think that was it? XD Sleepy, can't remember.

So anyways, we headed to seoul garden ate and crapped and had a helluva time until...nearly 4. :X

Then went to arcade. XD

HOCKEYYYYY. :D

Ohohoh. Andand, thanks for lending me your hoodieeee Zhen Yi! :D

Yay. That's it. Tired now. Bleh. XD

Me is lucky to have nice seniors. :D Jian Yuan lent me his jacket on the bus. hehehe. XD

Sweeet. :D

who's more troublesome, girls or guys?

2008-12-12T02:30:00.002+08:00

I had a conversation with Marion over lunch, and I was arguing that girls are such complicated creatures. :P Yes, siding with the guys as usual. Hahaha.

I understand guys better than girls. Sometimes. Most times.

Girls, I understand when I understand. Which is to say, quite a bit.

But guys are simpler. Easier. And cos I have a compicatedly simple brain, I can understand them. Girls are beyond my means every so often.

But sometimes, guys are confusing too, yea?

Ahh, I shall just enjoy the chill here on pluto.

But me companion flew over to mars for a holiday. ): Oh noes, I'm lonely.

what to have faith in, if not love?

2008-12-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

Technically, I should have lost faith in love. Or rather, I have.

Everytime I stop to think. Stop to see. Stop to listen. I see people crying. Hearts broken. So much frustration. Confusion. hurt?

It's gotten to the point, that when I look at all those getting into relationships, I subconciously find myself wondering how long they will last.

It's not that I wish them ill. I sincerely wish they'd all be happy, that no one needs to cry. But I've just lost all confidence.

I don't know. I don't seem to believe anymore. I wish to believe with all my heart, but. I don't. And that's a fact.

Do I love someone? Right here, right now?

I really am not too sure anymore.

With all the recent events. All the recent fluctuations of emotions. And. I don't know if its just me. But my gut feeling smells something in the air. It's going to rain. A storm.

I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. Lol.

And somehow, I don't really care. Because I know I'll find out sooner or later. And I'll just accept the answer and walk on.

Or maybe. Its because I'm scared. Scared outta my wits.

I probably could be selfish. Not bother about others. Keep to myself. Turn a blind eye to all these things. But I can't. For two various reasons.

I can't not care. To me, that hurts even more.
Ignoring something is not going to make me stronger.

I have to surpass this, somehow. I don't know how.

All I know is, if I don't have faith in Love, I have faith in nothing.

When did love become so shallow?

Bittersweet

2008-12-12T01:22:00.003+08:00

The taste of defeat.

HAHAHA. I SWEAR there's a line like that out there! :/

Eitherways. my brain hurts. T__T

SY is passing me naruto shippuden clips tml. \m/

hiphiphooray! :D

my holidays will definitely be busyyy.

K. I need to head to sentosa. :3

Bittersweet symphony is a damn nice song. If I get an idea of an anime that fits, i'll do it. ^^ As a filler. Cos blue bird. I have big plans for that one. ;)

K. That's it for now.

With music pounding in my ears

2008-12-11T19:52:00.001+08:00

0250 hours. Awake. :P

At kendo training camp right now, we're into the last day. I brought my laptop but didn't use it because I was having such an awesome time!

Oh and I learnt something new today. AIDS can be passed by sharing towels. WOW! :O

Lol, sarcasm to those who didn't notice.

K so anyway. That's not really why I wanted to blog.

Cos its all an act that has become so real that I can't stop.

IT'S ALL A LIE.

Lol.

Something's been getting at me, I have a ROUGH idea what, but no idea specifically. So, managed to handle it ok until today when my back hurt like shit, that kinda made me emo cos it was all piling up. And the last straw was a certain stupid THING that we shall not even consider worthy to be a cretin, and the dumb statement made as seen above. FYI, Nursing. =.=

Niao much.

Yea, went into super emo then.

I need to get a better hold on my emotions, so that people worry less.

Or at least learn to fake or hide it better, even if it is very very bad. :D

And somehow.

I wasn't as high as I normally get.

Something's changed, and its not you, is it.

Get better soon Louis, my current back sprain partner. ^.^

Shall blog more in detail when I get home and get some sleep. I'm just trying to stay awake for now. :P

OSSAN IS FALLING ASLEEP ACRROSS FROM ME. :D

K. That be it. Unless I get boredererest. :3

PAINPAINPAIN

2008-12-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

My back hurts like crap. =.=

Lawl. I have never felt something like this, all these years.

Bleh. I am getting olddddd.

Super tired and bored. =.=

Finishing photo after this. Then. Home. Then whatever I have to tie up. Then see the time, maybe some naruto. I'm gonna chiong over the weekend. Need to reach shippuden. I got inspiration for blue bird liao. gonna make it a biig one.

suffocating

2008-12-10T20:18:00.002+08:00

My chest feels tight. I can't breathe.

How long has it been since I've had this feeling? It's different from the chest pains I get. I kinda forgot cos I hadn't gotten it in so long. But I realise its not the same.

It feels like something bad is gonna happen. :/

And its been accurate so far. Cos the bad thing might not just be for me.

Tsk. I hope its a false alarm. This is the 5th time today. =.=

Anyway. Just saying. I need to do work, and I needed to get it off my chest, if you'd pardon the pun.

blue bird

2008-12-10T01:47:00.001+08:00

I want. To do. Something. To do with that.

I NEED SHIPPUDEN CLIPS SOON.

its up its up!

2008-12-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

My first amv. ^^ woo.

Click here! :D

gosh. I'm freezing. Today was a colddd day. :3

And my body is screwed. XD

Trembling with excitement

2008-12-07T00:49:00.001+08:00

I'm only gonna get like. 4 hours of sleep. >_> was supposed to go to sleep about an hour ago. Bleh.

Neh mind. I can do it.

:D

2008-12-06T17:10:00.002+08:00

YES! I don't know what I did, I think it was copying all the files over that did it, but whatever it was, the avisynth plugin for Adobe Premiere works!

Hehe. Now I really need a new external. NO SPACE SIOL. :/

Watch me shatter

2008-12-06T01:12:00.001+08:00

I promise you, it'll be a sight to behold.

Wordpress

2008-12-05T15:01:00.004+08:00

I am in agony.

I decided to use wordpess for my anime stuff. Here's the link.

I AM IN PAIN.

K. That's all for now. I'm bored and hurting like shit.

My brain is gonna asplode

2008-12-05T15:01:00.003+08:00

T__T

Bored. Waiting for virtualdub to finish its download so I can get on with file importation. Tried so many things that fails so am damn riled up now. The girls behind are damn noisyyyyyyyyyy. Ok fine. I'm just tired. XD

Anyways

I'm bored.

That is the conclusion.

So.

According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people.

1) I suffer from OCD at the worse times. Like when I've got 1 hour to finish 4 pages of a newsletter, and 45 minutes later, I am still on the cover page. :P

2) I like sharkies. :3

3) I always wanted to be a fish. Then I could swim around, without a care in the world. oh wait. I wanted to be a bird. I like flying.

4) I like fish randomly, but hate it mostly.

5) I wanna ride a horse through a forest, a sword hanging from a belt and cloak streaming behind me.

6) I ISH MAGICS WARLOCK.

7) I don't like sweet drinks.

8) I ISH MAGICS SWORDSMAN COS THE MAGICS WARLOCK GOT SELF-PWNED.

9) I am on a diet. :3 In your dreams.

10) I miss the times I would wake up at 4am to write on my laggy desktop and listen to midis from diskettes cos the CD drive was screwed.

11) VirtualDub is done.

12) One of my main mottos is. Noblesse Oblige.

13) My thumb turned green in Sec One. Its never been the same since then. :/

14) STARBUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

15) I found out like. 3 days ago. That if there's a noticable source of light and my brain is buzzing with activity because its tired, I tend to get night terror. So now I cover my psp and go to sleep.

16) The reason why my PSP is on is because I connect it to my radio alarm.

17) I don't like being bored.

The 5 People I Tag Are:

1) Zhen Yi (Another one for when you get a DA set up.)
2) Yi Lin (MOO! YOU NEVER DO THE OTHER ONE!)
3) Avril (YOU BROKEEEEE YOUR PROMISEEEEEEEEEEEE T___T)
4) Isaiah. (Ello. :P)
5) Ailin. :D

恋文 (Koibumi)

2008-12-05T00:27:00.005+08:00

Nice song Fiona made an AMV with, I fell in love with it, and she helped me find translations!

It'll prolly be my blog song sometime soon. :3

The days that I spent together with you
Thinking of something under the blue sky,
I close my eyes,
Recalling the dear days as I snap my fingers.

I fell in love with your numerous habits,
And in the clam rustle of the wind
I learned love.

Before I stare,
I want you to be in front of me.
No matter how old we get,
I want to be able to laugh together,
The same way as the first time we did,
At the instant beauty of life.

Because love is something we can’t see,
I am often lonely and afraid,
Impatiently pitying myself,
But that is the reason those were the
Dear days . . .

You showed me various sides of yourself,
Shimmering in front of me
As I swear my love.

So even if you tell a little white lie,
To me, it is the same as your truths.
Only if I could continue remembering you
Just a little bit at a time,
Even if you change,
During this time we can’t meet.

Although I may not be able to remember
The important things in my life,
Because I can only be what I am,
I want to continue to believe them,
Even for a short while,
And in that way
Go on with life.

Before I stare,
I want you to be in front of me.
No matter how old we get,
So we can laugh together,
The same way as the first time we did,
At the instant beauty of life.

Edit: Changed it. Couldn't resist. :3

do the ends really justify the means?

2008-12-04T10:02:00.003+08:00

Just a random thought that popped into my head while I was showering. And here's MY take on it. It's just an opinion. XD

What if.

Strength could be divided into five main groups.

The weak, or cowards, who don't do anything, don't try anything, using the excuse, the ends don't justify the means. So we don't wanna use the wrong means. And thus they end up doing nothing.

The normal, who only notice the pain of the world when it hits real close to home. Before that, they're oblivious, and as long as their world is ok, they're satisfied. (SAJI CROSSROAD. :X) Either that, or they notice, but don't really do anything about it. Bits here and there is the limit.

The strong, who will protect or achieve the right end using whatever means necessary. They don't feel guilt using the wrong means cos they feel the ends justify it all.

The guilty, who are the same as the above, except they carry the weight of the guilt or sin on their shoulder. I label them as stronger than the previous because, even knowing full well the consequence or weight of the sins, they still have the courage to shoulder them, for the good of someone else.

The elite. Those who are able to achieve their intended ends using the right means, even if it was not necessarily the most easily achievable. This one is really tough, cos sometimes, we really don't see an alternative other than the wrong means.

But at the end of all this, what IS the right or wrong means? Isn't it all a matter of opinion? Some consider killing a bad guy to save a thousand others a wrong method. Some consider it right. What is wrong and right? Is it not up to each individual philosophy?

Is it right to sacrifice one innocent life to save five others?

I'll post that email up again when I find it.

wthh

2008-12-03T23:52:00.001+08:00

I'm actually watching naruto. Seriously what the hell. =.=

Ahh, but Sasuke is STILL my favourite character after all this while. Blue hair. Angsty. Cool. Cold. :3

AHhahaha. The strong silent type? Muahaha. Always liked that in a main character. No wonder I like him. Altho. He aint no main character.

And Zidane aint strong silent. But he's cool too.

Hmm.

XD

FF AC

2008-12-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

I just got an idea. It won't go out of my head. Its brilliant. But its going to be damn hard to do it.

AHHHHHHHHHH.

But. It's. EPIC. T___T

sleepy

2008-12-02T13:49:00.003+08:00

i'm sleepyy.

Media Finance is like...easy mode doing wise. Paying attention is. Hard x 100000. XD

Like. Sleepy making much.

Hmm. I think I just broke outta the cycle.

Out of the frying pan and into the fire? I wonder. :P

blog songggggggg

2008-12-02T01:55:00.008+08:00

Can't remember if this was EVER my blog song. Should keep an archive. :P

Anyways. After much deliberation (rock paper scissors on MSN) between this and...hanaku...thing, friends emerged champion!

Eh no. Should be. After an action packed match between Adeline and Zhen Yi, filled with narrow misses with sharkies and many unintentionally co-ordinated moves, Zhen Yi emerged the winner by one, and thus Friends was saved and Hakanaku mo Towa no Kanashi thrown in with the sharks.

XD

He's helping me edit the codes now so that the player is well and truly hidden. :3 Cos I gave up trying.

I'm getting the hang of the simpler stuff tho. :O

And I disabled right clicking. muahaha.

Thanks Zhen Yi. :D <3

Edit: YAY its done! :D

*glomps*

Blogskin change!

2008-12-02T01:20:00.002+08:00

Because I felt like it. :P

Background is back to black. Not cos I'm emo. Its just.

Exia. <3

Exia > Cloud.

HAHAHAHA. jk. But i figured. Its time for a change. Was bored.

oh yea. Embed music

Sigh.

Lets start with a gundam 00 song. :P

I wanted to say something. But I forgot.

Ahwell. :/

cycle

2008-12-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

Yes, Ade follows one. More on that later.

It's december! The month of christmas! Haha.

Not as hyped up yet, my first reaction when I woke up this morning was...

Oh. its december.

Ahh well. XD

My emotional state lately has followed a more or less definite cycle.

1. Stable.
2. Confused.
3. Realisation.

I keep drifting from ok to confused again, which is a messy messy thing. XD

Yes and realise everytime how stupid it all is. =.=

It's just my brain, I swear its out to get me. XD

Anyways, I finally hit stage 3 of the cycle today, after quite awhile.

But there seems to be abnormability in the cycle.

Which I guess is a good thing. Cos I don't really like things recurring as they are. XD

To end off.

Which came first. The chicken or the egg?

Live on

2008-11-29T13:19:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna survive. I wanna live.

I think deep inside, all of us desire that.

But somehow...maybe cos of regrets...or other things we cannot let go.

We need to survive for a little while longer.

If we survive for a little while longer, we can live.

Somehow, surviving becomes a way of life.

And life becomes a torture.

Thats why...don't survive. But live on.

Confusing? It really isn't.

Why should I?

2008-11-29T01:21:00.002+08:00

You're not worthy. Nor ready.

The world is going mad.
Or maybe its just me.

Its as if I'm watching...watching everyone fall...
Just watching.
Because I'm trapped in a glass chamber.

Two days to the end of Nano. Epic fail.
Two days to two others.

I've made up my mind not to care about unimportant things.
But somehow, my heart doesn't listen.

I suddenly wish for it to rain. Rain sooooo heavily, but not to the point of a thunderstorm.

I wanna stand out there and let the rain wash it all away.

It feels nice, at any rate.

I wonder...

2008-11-26T00:37:00.000+08:00

What is truth and are lies?

Who knows, really.

*shrugs*

Lies that one believes in...becomes truth to self.

A truth you are to hold in disbelief. Is a lie.

And thus.

True or false.

Who knows, maybe the sky is really green, but our eyes screw the colors and scientists don't know.

Maybe color blind people are actually those who see truly, and we have false vision.

Maybe darkness is reality, and all we see is illusion.

:P

Whoa. XD

2008-11-24T23:46:00.001+08:00

Nikon D40. Epic win.