Mum said we'll go look around for parts next thursday and friday when there are no lessons.

Yay, new CPU soon. <3

So, i'd better make a note here of songs I DO wanna do next.

A naruto koibumi, just for the heck of it.

A naruto bluebird, biggg emphasis.

A naruto warmness of the soul? :/

Yea. K, thats it.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 15:05




Wow. That's a long way down.

Helloooooooooo?

Loooloooloo.

Lol's at echo.

I hate.

People who judge without understanding the situation.

Which is pretty much everyone, including myself, cos we all make that mistake sometimes, don't we?

But I realised. Wisdom presented in such judgement. Is meaningless.

So, does that mean there is such a thing as meaningless wisdom? I'd say no, because something as such, does not deserve to be thought of as wisdom, does it?

I hate MFM. So much calculation involved, formulas presented.

That's why I hated math. And never bothered with math.

But much as I hate math. Much as I hate MFM. It exists.

Its a part of the world.

And when in rome, do what romans do.

I dislike that.

But sometimes, you just gotta live with it, don't you?

I disliked wearing a pinafore for my school uniform back in secondary school.

But did that mean I could not wear it?

If only. :/


Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 03:39




Midnight.

NO SHIT?! XD

Silly questions people ask sometimes. :P

That aside, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. >:D

Y'know, for the past few years, christmas has been doing this to me.

Sneaks up on me, catches me unawares, seems to have come so quickly.

Zoned out at the thought of midnight mass.

But by the time its all over, it REALLY is christmas. :D

Christmas is a time, christmas is a time, christmas is a time, for loveeeeeeee~

:P

I love you all. :3 Really. <3

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 02:09




When someone is so sick of trying, and just feels like giving up?

I have had my fair share of this feeling, yet somehow, everytime it seems the previous method doesn't apply, or even better, "what method?"

The irony of this whole thing, it took something like that to help me realise that I've been looking at the wrong place.

Because, time rushes by too quickly, everything is over too soon, just by being with you.

That's not something that can happen...so easily...is it?

Especially not for me.

K, spoiler here.

*DAMN EFFING ITCHY! T__T and it hurts so bad.*

Ok. Back to topic.

Yes, I have a short attention span. Somehow. :/

Lets go to Kovan arcade one day, we can try the samurai game! ^^ We'll see how samurai fares against his foes. :X

Samurai piglet. Piglet samurai. Pigpig samurai? Samurai pigpig.

Hmm. Tough decisions. XD

Right. Just saw the beginning of this post. I really went damn off track there, eh.

Forget it. I won't give up, but I won't try especially hard either.

For now, I'll just wait and see.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 02:13




It's my new blog song. :D Hahaha. My version's by Bing Crosby. :X

:D

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 20:05




Now, I'm REALLY glad I'm tougher than I seem. =.=

Omg, that effectively means, everything I've been worrying about the past few days a LIE. XD

:/

What the heck. :P

I'm still slightly off. +.+ Shall not say why.

Well, actually. I don't know myself. That part wasn't a lie. XD

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 00:47




Lol. Really, you are.

Because it's everyone's fault except for yours, isn't it? Everybody hurts you but you haven't hurt anybody, eh?

I wonder, if so many people have supposedly hurt you, are you just soft, or maybe the problem lies with YOU?

Hmm.

ANYWAYS.

Shall blog. About stuff I said I'd blog about. XD Aka kendo camp.

First day was kinda insane, yet funny. Hahaha. The highlights were the shiais, and the commentary after that from looking at the score sheets. Hahahaha! Here's an example.

"Adeline...lost to Yen Ling. And Yen Ling lost to Jia Ying. But Adeline drew with Jia Ying. *gives confused face*"

"Ernest Tan pushed his way to victory against Oliver"

:S

The guys matches were cool too, the court I was videoing was dominated by men, quite literally. Every single point that was scored was a men point. XD Insanity. And Zhen Yi's fast attack was cool. :3 KC beat Gabriel, so that was epic.

After that, we walked over to amk to get, well, supposedly breakfast, but nobody ever cares. :S We got to NTUC, and decided to continue the practice of getting our cushies at the same time. ^^ It's gonna become a kendo camp tradition, yay. :D More and more seniors are joining us! ^___^

Got sushi and all as well.

Went back to school, watched videos of our matches.

AFTER eating our sushi, sharing around and crapping. XD

Had a bowl of instant noodles, another action carried over from the previous camp.

We ordered pizza, we ate pizza, we were happy. XD

So full as well. After that was...they were practicing kata? I went to watch em, and then when they were done, gorgor, Wen Jun, Oliver, Jordan, Zhen Yi, Suresh and me stayed up chatting. Wen Jun and Jojo went to sleep around 3? The rest of us stayed up until 4, crapping like anything.

Woke up at 6 the next day. Two hours of sleep, plus intensive training, WOOHOO! XD

To be continued.... :P

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 10:27




I knew I wanted to type something but forgot it. But I remembered. So anyways.

I guess there is one good thing about this. It shows I am stronger. I feel saddened, but not drained. Far from it, actually. XD

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:09




I go looking for it. =.= No really. I swear.

This can't be happeningggggg. Lol.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 00:23




Not as much as I'd expected.

Looking forward to it for all the weirdest reasons. -.-"

Who knows. Maybe I'm just avoiding the other reasons, and trying to convince myself they aren't true.

Hmp.

Kendo camp...uh. Will blog about it...soon.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 00:44




It's evidence enough that I have changed.

No matter how tired I was, it was always enough to make me go hyper.

Yet now, I'm hesitating.

Considering another option.

Maybe I'm just well and truly dead tired, with all the lack of sleep.

I'm quite desperate, had sugar spam, COKE with hotcakes and syrup for breakfast, but it obviously did nothing to help.

:/

Bed now. Night.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 13:42




Today was a very very very long day. :S Sleepy now. >_>

Woke up at 6, headed to serangoon mrt to meet Aaron and Jack, we were planning to cab down. But daddy sent us all the way in the end. He got a LIL lost. :X HAHAHAHA.

Grading was...weird. I think the sensei's were feeling strict? XD :S I don't know, its just weird that EVERYONE only climbed one level, or got failed somehow. @_@

Ok, enough about that. After that, we headed to tampines to eat. Split into two groups there, the girls and jordan and gorgor went over to pizza hut. I was the only girl with the rest of the guys, aka Zhen Yi, Oli, ET, KC, SS, Luke, Gregory, Dwayne, Kai, Glenn...I think that was it? XD Sleepy, can't remember.

So anyways, we headed to seoul garden ate and crapped and had a helluva time until...nearly 4. :X

Then went to arcade. XD

HOCKEYYYYY. :D

Ohohoh. Andand, thanks for lending me your hoodieeee Zhen Yi! :D

Yay. That's it. Tired now. Bleh. XD

Me is lucky to have nice seniors. :D Jian Yuan lent me his jacket on the bus. hehehe. XD

Sweeet. :D

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 18:36




I had a conversation with Marion over lunch, and I was arguing that girls are such complicated creatures. :P Yes, siding with the guys as usual. Hahaha.

I understand guys better than girls. Sometimes. Most times.

Girls, I understand when I understand. Which is to say, quite a bit.

But guys are simpler. Easier. And cos I have a compicatedly simple brain, I can understand them. Girls are beyond my means every so often.

But sometimes, guys are confusing too, yea?

Ahh, I shall just enjoy the chill here on pluto.

But me companion flew over to mars for a holiday. ): Oh noes, I'm lonely.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 02:30




Technically, I should have lost faith in love. Or rather, I have.

Everytime I stop to think. Stop to see. Stop to listen. I see people crying. Hearts broken. So much frustration. Confusion. hurt?

It's gotten to the point, that when I look at all those getting into relationships, I subconciously find myself wondering how long they will last.

It's not that I wish them ill. I sincerely wish they'd all be happy, that no one needs to cry. But I've just lost all confidence.

I don't know. I don't seem to believe anymore. I wish to believe with all my heart, but. I don't. And that's a fact.

Do I love someone? Right here, right now?

I really am not too sure anymore.

With all the recent events. All the recent fluctuations of emotions. And. I don't know if its just me. But my gut feeling smells something in the air. It's going to rain. A storm.

I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. Lol.

And somehow, I don't really care. Because I know I'll find out sooner or later. And I'll just accept the answer and walk on.

Or maybe. Its because I'm scared. Scared outta my wits.

I probably could be selfish. Not bother about others. Keep to myself. Turn a blind eye to all these things. But I can't. For two various reasons.

I can't not care. To me, that hurts even more.
Ignoring something is not going to make me stronger.

I have to surpass this, somehow. I don't know how.

All I know is, if I don't have faith in Love, I have faith in nothing.

When did love become so shallow?

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:43




The taste of defeat.

HAHAHA. I SWEAR there's a line like that out there! :/

Eitherways. my brain hurts. T__T

SY is passing me naruto shippuden clips tml. \m/

hiphiphooray! :D

my holidays will definitely be busyyy.

K. I need to head to sentosa. :3

Bittersweet symphony is a damn nice song. If I get an idea of an anime that fits, i'll do it. ^^ As a filler. Cos blue bird. I have big plans for that one. ;)

K. That's it for now.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:22




0250 hours. Awake. :P

At kendo training camp right now, we're into the last day. I brought my laptop but didn't use it because I was having such an awesome time!

Oh and I learnt something new today. AIDS can be passed by sharing towels. WOW! :O

Lol, sarcasm to those who didn't notice.

K so anyway. That's not really why I wanted to blog.

Cos its all an act that has become so real that I can't stop.

IT'S ALL A LIE.

Lol.

Something's been getting at me, I have a ROUGH idea what, but no idea specifically. So, managed to handle it ok until today when my back hurt like shit, that kinda made me emo cos it was all piling up. And the last straw was a certain stupid THING that we shall not even consider worthy to be a cretin, and the dumb statement made as seen above. FYI, Nursing. =.=

Niao much.

Yea, went into super emo then.

I need to get a better hold on my emotions, so that people worry less.

Or at least learn to fake or hide it better, even if it is very very bad. :D

And somehow.

I wasn't as high as I normally get.

Something's changed, and its not you, is it.

Get better soon Louis, my current back sprain partner. ^.^

Shall blog more in detail when I get home and get some sleep. I'm just trying to stay awake for now. :P

OSSAN IS FALLING ASLEEP ACRROSS FROM ME. :D

K. That be it. Unless I get boredererest. :3

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 19:52




My back hurts like crap. =.=

Lawl. I have never felt something like this, all these years.

Bleh. I am getting olddddd.

Super tired and bored. =.=

Finishing photo after this. Then. Home. Then whatever I have to tie up. Then see the time, maybe some naruto. I'm gonna chiong over the weekend. Need to reach shippuden. I got inspiration for blue bird liao. gonna make it a biig one.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 19:52




My chest feels tight. I can't breathe.

How long has it been since I've had this feeling? It's different from the chest pains I get. I kinda forgot cos I hadn't gotten it in so long. But I realise its not the same.

It feels like something bad is gonna happen. :/

And its been accurate so far. Cos the bad thing might not just be for me.

Tsk. I hope its a false alarm. This is the 5th time today. =.=

Anyway. Just saying. I need to do work, and I needed to get it off my chest, if you'd pardon the pun.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 20:18




I want. To do. Something. To do with that.

I NEED SHIPPUDEN CLIPS SOON.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:47




My first amv. ^^ woo.

Click here! :D

gosh. I'm freezing. Today was a colddd day. :3

And my body is screwed. XD

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 19:59




I'm only gonna get like. 4 hours of sleep. >_> was supposed to go to sleep about an hour ago. Bleh.

Neh mind. I can do it.

:D

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 00:49




YES! I don't know what I did, I think it was copying all the files over that did it, but whatever it was, the avisynth plugin for Adobe Premiere works!

Hehe. Now I really need a new external. NO SPACE SIOL. :/

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 17:10




I promise you, it'll be a sight to behold.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:12




I am in agony.

I decided to use wordpess for my anime stuff. Here's the link.

I AM IN PAIN.

K. That's all for now. I'm bored and hurting like shit.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 15:01




T__T

Bored. Waiting for virtualdub to finish its download so I can get on with file importation. Tried so many things that fails so am damn riled up now. The girls behind are damn noisyyyyyyyyyy. Ok fine. I'm just tired. XD

Anyways

I'm bored.

That is the conclusion.

So.

According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people.

1) I suffer from OCD at the worse times. Like when I've got 1 hour to finish 4 pages of a newsletter, and 45 minutes later, I am still on the cover page. :P

2) I like sharkies. :3

3) I always wanted to be a fish. Then I could swim around, without a care in the world. oh wait. I wanted to be a bird. I like flying.

4) I like fish randomly, but hate it mostly.

5) I wanna ride a horse through a forest, a sword hanging from a belt and cloak streaming behind me.

6) I ISH MAGICS WARLOCK.

7) I don't like sweet drinks.

8) I ISH MAGICS SWORDSMAN COS THE MAGICS WARLOCK GOT SELF-PWNED.

9) I am on a diet. :3 In your dreams.

10) I miss the times I would wake up at 4am to write on my laggy desktop and listen to midis from diskettes cos the CD drive was screwed.

11) VirtualDub is done.

12) One of my main mottos is. Noblesse Oblige.

13) My thumb turned green in Sec One. Its never been the same since then. :/

14) STARBUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

15) I found out like. 3 days ago. That if there's a noticable source of light and my brain is buzzing with activity because its tired, I tend to get night terror. So now I cover my psp and go to sleep.

16) The reason why my PSP is on is because I connect it to my radio alarm.

17) I don't like being bored.


The 5 People I Tag Are:

1) Zhen Yi (Another one for when you get a DA set up.)
2) Yi Lin (MOO! YOU NEVER DO THE OTHER ONE!)
3) Avril (YOU BROKEEEEE YOUR PROMISEEEEEEEEEEEE T___T)
4) Isaiah. (Ello. :P)
5) Ailin. :D

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 15:01




Nice song Fiona made an AMV with, I fell in love with it, and she helped me find translations!

It'll prolly be my blog song sometime soon. :3

The days that I spent together with you
Thinking of something under the blue sky,
I close my eyes,
Recalling the dear days as I snap my fingers.


I fell in love with your numerous habits,
And in the clam rustle of the wind
I learned love.


Before I stare,
I want you to be in front of me.
No matter how old we get,
I want to be able to laugh together,
The same way as the first time we did,
At the instant beauty of life.


Because love is something we can’t see,
I am often lonely and afraid,
Impatiently pitying myself,
But that is the reason those were the
Dear days . . .


You showed me various sides of yourself,
Shimmering in front of me
As I swear my love.


So even if you tell a little white lie,
To me, it is the same as your truths.
Only if I could continue remembering you
Just a little bit at a time,
Even if you change,
During this time we can’t meet.


Although I may not be able to remember
The important things in my life,
Because I can only be what I am,
I want to continue to believe them,
Even for a short while,
And in that way
Go on with life.


Before I stare,
I want you to be in front of me.
No matter how old we get,
So we can laugh together,
The same way as the first time we did,
At the instant beauty of life.

Edit: Changed it. Couldn't resist. :3


Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 00:27




Just a random thought that popped into my head while I was showering. And here's MY take on it. It's just an opinion. XD

What if.

Strength could be divided into five main groups.

The weak, or cowards, who don't do anything, don't try anything, using the excuse, the ends don't justify the means. So we don't wanna use the wrong means. And thus they end up doing nothing.

The normal, who only notice the pain of the world when it hits real close to home. Before that, they're oblivious, and as long as their world is ok, they're satisfied. (SAJI CROSSROAD. :X) Either that, or they notice, but don't really do anything about it. Bits here and there is the limit.

The strong, who will protect or achieve the right end using whatever means necessary. They don't feel guilt using the wrong means cos they feel the ends justify it all.

The guilty, who are the same as the above, except they carry the weight of the guilt or sin on their shoulder. I label them as stronger than the previous because, even knowing full well the consequence or weight of the sins, they still have the courage to shoulder them, for the good of someone else.

The elite. Those who are able to achieve their intended ends using the right means, even if it was not necessarily the most easily achievable. This one is really tough, cos sometimes, we really don't see an alternative other than the wrong means.

But at the end of all this, what IS the right or wrong means? Isn't it all a matter of opinion? Some consider killing a bad guy to save a thousand others a wrong method. Some consider it right. What is wrong and right? Is it not up to each individual philosophy?

Is it right to sacrifice one innocent life to save five others?

I'll post that email up again when I find it.

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 10:02




I'm actually watching naruto. Seriously what the hell. =.=

Ahh, but Sasuke is STILL my favourite character after all this while. Blue hair. Angsty. Cool. Cold. :3

AHhahaha. The strong silent type? Muahaha. Always liked that in a main character. No wonder I like him. Altho. He aint no main character.

And Zidane aint strong silent. But he's cool too.

Hmm.

XD

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 23:52




I just got an idea. It won't go out of my head. Its brilliant. But its going to be damn hard to do it.

AHHHHHHHHHH.

But. It's. EPIC. T___T

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 23:30




i'm sleepyy.

Media Finance is like...easy mode doing wise. Paying attention is. Hard x 100000. XD

Like. Sleepy making much.

Hmm. I think I just broke outta the cycle.

Out of the frying pan and into the fire? I wonder. :P

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 13:49




Can't remember if this was EVER my blog song. Should keep an archive. :P

Anyways. After much deliberation (rock paper scissors on MSN) between this and...hanaku...thing, friends emerged champion!

Eh no. Should be. After an action packed match between Adeline and Zhen Yi, filled with narrow misses with sharkies and many unintentionally co-ordinated moves, Zhen Yi emerged the winner by one, and thus Friends was saved and Hakanaku mo Towa no Kanashi thrown in with the sharks.

XD

He's helping me edit the codes now so that the player is well and truly hidden. :3 Cos I gave up trying.

I'm getting the hang of the simpler stuff tho. :O

And I disabled right clicking. muahaha.

Thanks Zhen Yi. :D <3

Edit: YAY its done! :D

*glomps*

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:55




Because I felt like it. :P

Background is back to black. Not cos I'm emo. Its just.

Exia. <3

Exia > Cloud.

HAHAHAHA. jk. But i figured. Its time for a change. Was bored.

oh yea. Embed music

Sigh.

Lets start with a gundam 00 song. :P

I wanted to say something. But I forgot.

Ahwell. :/

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:20




Yes, Ade follows one. More on that later.

It's december! The month of christmas! Haha.

Not as hyped up yet, my first reaction when I woke up this morning was...

Oh. its december.

Ahh well. XD

My emotional state lately has followed a more or less definite cycle.

1. Stable.
2. Confused.
3. Realisation.

I keep drifting from ok to confused again, which is a messy messy thing. XD

Yes and realise everytime how stupid it all is. =.=

It's just my brain, I swear its out to get me. XD

Anyways, I finally hit stage 3 of the cycle today, after quite awhile.

But there seems to be abnormability in the cycle.

Which I guess is a good thing. Cos I don't really like things recurring as they are. XD

To end off.

Which came first. The chicken or the egg?

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 22:24




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