Tears of sin

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what to have faith in, if not love?

Technically, I should have lost faith in love. Or rather, I have.

Everytime I stop to think. Stop to see. Stop to listen. I see people crying. Hearts broken. So much frustration. Confusion. hurt?

It's gotten to the point, that when I look at all those getting into relationships, I subconciously find myself wondering how long they will last.

It's not that I wish them ill. I sincerely wish they'd all be happy, that no one needs to cry. But I've just lost all confidence.

I don't know. I don't seem to believe anymore. I wish to believe with all my heart, but. I don't. And that's a fact.

Do I love someone? Right here, right now?

I really am not too sure anymore.

With all the recent events. All the recent fluctuations of emotions. And. I don't know if its just me. But my gut feeling smells something in the air. It's going to rain. A storm.

I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. Lol.

And somehow, I don't really care. Because I know I'll find out sooner or later. And I'll just accept the answer and walk on.

Or maybe. Its because I'm scared. Scared outta my wits.

I probably could be selfish. Not bother about others. Keep to myself. Turn a blind eye to all these things. But I can't. For two various reasons.

I can't not care. To me, that hurts even more.
Ignoring something is not going to make me stronger.

I have to surpass this, somehow. I don't know how.

All I know is, if I don't have faith in Love, I have faith in nothing.

When did love become so shallow?

Fly forth, guided by your heart ; 01:43

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